Overflow

I am overwhelmed, just digging through a large volume of stuff to do as well as reacting to new possibilities coming at me.

I forget that this can be stressful. I forget that I can get stressed. I still catch myself in that old, familiar habit of simply not feeling the feelings that might be negative. Instead, they swirl around inside, unacknowledged, and wake me up at night. That’s always my first clue: Oh. You’re feeling some pressure.

Amazing to me that with all my years of experience, my age and wisdom, my years of therapy learning to untangle unneeded or expired defense mechanisms that I can still swallow some feelings whole. Me, who (seemingly) lives every single moment of my life out loud and in public, for my own edification and education, and for others, for company.

But last night I slept all night instead of waking up and staying awake for three hours. And with the soothing power of being well-rested, I can see more clearly.

I am going to take some risks.

I am going to step outside my box.

I am going to challenge my own ideas of what “security” I need to be “safe.”

I am going to trust that I am as smart, talented and driven as I really do know myself to be.

I’m going to man up.

That’s, a little joke. By that what I mean is I am going to assume that because I am confident I can do 80 percent of the opportunities in front of me, that I can of course do or learn how to do the other 20. Men consider themselves suited for a position if they can do fifty percent of a job.

So yeah, I’m going to take on a bit of that attitude.

I am nervous, friends. Nervous to push myself onto higher ground. Not nervous that I can do the work, but nervous about leaving paychecks behind. The trusted rhythm of direct deposit is a powerful soporific, no doubt. But I don’t want to sleep. I want to live, and learn, and amaze myself, and push myself. And be interested in the work I’m doing. And get to choose the work I’m doing.

So here goes nothing. Or, more honestly, here goes something. Let’s just hope it’s something great.

And in the meantime, I’ll keep trying to feel my feelings of anxiety, uncertainty and doubt, and remember that they are all just part of the package of the freedom, creativity and influence I so definitely crave.

Geronimooooooo!

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I Am Full, So Full

I am in transition again, my dear friends and sisters (and brothers, too; I know you’re out there). I have so many things I want to share and say, this burgeoning clarity and peace with who I am and what I expect and want from life. But it’s hard to find the time to sort out the thoughts into something approaching clarity: It’s like I am trapped in pieces of several different poems, all of them singing to me at once.

But I feel so full and good and so… open. Wide open.

I wrote this piece about the gift of loss. It takes many years for this gift to rise up out of the rubble and to be visible through the tears, but I know that this specific gift is why I feel so whole and good right now.

Life: It doesn’t make sense. Not OUR sense. But it makes sense somewhere bigger and far beyond us.

Go and read. Let me know what you think, what resonates, if anything. xo

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5 Random Facts About Me

I’ve been tagged in an internet meme-ME thing, by the magical Susan Goldberg, aka Mama Non Grata, and so I am to tell you Five Random Facts About Me.

If you know me at all, you know one of my absolute FAVORITE things to talk about is myself. I am a person who examines every inch of myself and my life in a way that makes one of my best friends from college say, “Wow, you really have a lot going on in there. Don’t you get tired? I get tired listening to you.”

In a good way, I assume.

That’s why I think it’s oddly hilarious that I have been challenged to come up with Five Random Facts About Me. I can’t decide if it’s because I’ve already told the Internets and the world so much about myself that there’s nothing left to share, or that, really, I’m not that interesting and don’t have uniquely memorable details to the whole kit and caboodle that is me.

Hmm… ::cue contemplative gaze::

But I’m going to whip some off, off the top of my head. So, without further ado:

1) I have a deep-rooted connection with diesel trains, cargo ships and 18-wheelers.
I have spent a bit of time cogitating on this utterly romantic association, and yet, I can’t quite feel its roots. All I know is that the long lowing of a train in the night gives me goosebumps. That I love standing as close as I can to the train tracks as the huge diesel engines shoot by, and count the clackety-clacks of all the cargo cars, well past a hundred. That in Texas once I stood in the hot sun and watched a big train stop and the driver climb down after tossing his duffel bag first, and then another drive load himself up, and that I was so happy to catch that exchange it still stands crisp in my mind as if yesterday. That the day I saw a gigantic ocean liner make its way up the Bosphorus and disappear into the massive stretch of the Black Sea gave me vertigo in a way I treasured, the world at last visible in a glance, as I was hundreds of feet above sea level and the ship looked like a water bug being swallowed by infinity. That both my brothers have their CDLs (commercial drivers’ license) and I am jealous, and am always scheming about when the right moment in life will be for me to drive a massive 18-wheeler across the country on the loneliest, longest roads, at night, for pay. My father loved trains,  but it’s more than that, and it was born in me. It defines something important about solitude and strength and the pathways that are laid for us to follow, and yet also at the same time, about our incredible fragility and minuteness in the scale of this world.

2) Dragonflies follow me around in my life, in ways that far pass chance.
The list of intense and memorable experiences I’ve had with dragonflies starts with my mother: the jewelry we loved and collected and gave to each other, pins and earrings and scarves and more. Then, later, dragonflies followed me, flew in patterns around me when I was with a lover who was teaching me to know myself, tapped on a friend’s window as I wept to her over the telephone and told her my pain, showed up in dozens and maybe hundreds in a field too late in fall when I was feeling my mother nearby after she was gone. I don’t know what it means—except that dragonflies represent living in two worlds, and moving from one to the other, choosing neither—but that I always pay attention when I see one, listen harder, hold my breath, wait for the memo that will surely follow…

3) I have two brothers; they are everything.
For some reason, I pass as an only child. Which I don’t totally understand. Yes, I’m driven. Confident. Attention-Seeking. Does that usually come with only children? But my brothers are such a deeply ingrained part of my identity and my sense of understanding myself, I can’t believe they aren’t automatically visible, two little men hanging out on either shoulder. (And yes, one’s an angel and one’s a devil—though neither in a simplistic way; they are much more complex and human than that.) I am at peace in the company of women now, after many years of struggling to find my way when I was a teenager and older. Because I grew up in the language of brothers—pride, love understood, unquestioned—and that will always be my native tongue.

4) I only very recently realized how much I like to be alone.
I am almost pathologically driven to engage, as any of you who have met me can surely attest. I absorb people, drawing them into me. I always think of the French word avaler, which means ‘to swallow,’ but the open-throatedness of the French word is how I consume and take in the people I’m meeting, talking with: ah-va-lay. In greedy gulps. So imagine my utter surprise to learn, at the age of 45, that I can be by myself for days and be completely satisfied with myself. I had no idea that lurking within this extrovert, this people person, this incessant talker and sharer and doer, was a quiet, content person, happy to be milling about with no company at all but the trees.

5) I like to eat anything red-hot cinnamon in quantity, until my mouth throbs, even though I think food coloring is immoral.
Not much else to say here for this one, except admit that it’s true. Oh, cinnamon hearts, I love you so. And Sizzling Cinnamon (TM) Jelly Bellies (R). And Big Red chewing gum. And Marvis cinnamon toothpaste. And when I get on the fire kick, I can eat an entire bag of whatever, even as I get a stomach ache, because that hot, sweet fiery, red sensation in my mouth is a drug I can’t resist.

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Because I’m late to this meme—a lot going on in my life at this moment, which I will get to soon enough—I am sure the people I tap will have already participated, but I’m going to try anyway.

Have you shared this yet, Alexandra, Rita, Rita, Debra? Please do. (Lindsey, I think I saw yours already?) And link me when you do.

 

 

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What Life Is and Isn’t

I posted this on Facebook today, because I was feeling blank and miserable and overwhelmed and … grateful and wistful and everything, all at once, in those ways that life sometimes churns up for you, like a tamarind sundae, sharp and sweet.

And I liked it, and what it brought out from others, so I’m reposting it here.

I wish every day the cosmic majesty felt so close and so pressing, but we couldn’t handle it if it did. I’m fascinated by how our feeble minds must fill themselves with thoughts other than the IS of it all, or we’d spend our days in a corner rocking…. or, more likely, in supplication, praying, being.

A dear, dear friend found out her father, from whom she was estranged, has liver and lung cancer, advanced, five days ago. He died last night. She was with him. I am feeling so many feelings, about her, for her, about the world, life, loss, everything we want this world to be, how it can’t be those things. And how we learn to manage that gap—between what we hope for and what we get—defines us in profound ways that have much more meaning than any of the little thoughts that flit in and out of our heads all day long. I want to stand up in the aisle of my train and ask everyone to bow their heads and just take a moment to revere our mortal mystery, this accident of consciousness, this unsolvable puzzle called life. I love you so much, friend. I am so sorry you have had so much pain to carry. You are a miracle. As are we all.

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Looking Over My Shoulder

I undertook a big renovation in my house this year, adding a new bathroom and a walk-in closet to the big open room I decided to turn into a master bedroom when I bought the house. This meant stealing five feet from across the back of the garage (which I thought was very clever of me), and then steeling myself for the expense and mess of such a big undertaking.

The workers started in April, about eight months after Zack and I had moved in, and they finished about three or four weeks ago. And it’s all amazing, totally worth it. Now the house is perfectly made for the life I wanted to live here. The master bedroom has windows all the way around it, and has a door that opens onto the gardens. It’s big enough to house both my bedroom and my office, all my beloved books in one place (as soon as the bookcases get here, in a month or so).

So this weekend I finally was able to undertake the labor of putting things to rights. With no closet, no bookcases, no office storage, it’s pretty much a giant mess of piles in here. A new file cabinet is tucked away into the closet, waiting to be filled. And though I didn’t have enough do re mi to finish the closet’s innards, I have two rolling racks at the ready.

I had already sorted out a pretty large pile of clothes to go to Goodwill this week, because—good news—I’ve dropped 25 pounds since June. Part of the weight loss was because of being sick with diverticulitis, but most of it is just because of Being Ready. Ready to let in that I might be safe, that I’m okay. How it is possible that I am still shaking off layers of grief and loss four years later, I don’t know, but that appears to be true.

So I was a little shocked to discover three full boxes of clothes in the extra bedroom, when I started rearranging all the clothing in the closets. (My clothes had been scattered throughout the house before the renovation, tucked into any open closet.) And I was more shocked to see what was in them: Clothes that don’t fit. Clothes from my “smaller” life. Clothes from four years ago.

I know I got rid of a ton of clothing when I moved. After all, I was a magazine editor, and if there’s ever a job that gives you permission to be clotheshorse, that is it. In fact, I often referred to myself in my job as a “pretty pony,” the shiny one, all dressed up and trotted out for advertisers and readers alike. Here I am on TV! Here I am at a fashion show! Of course it was all very fun, don’t get me wrong. But there were many moments I wondered if I’d get paid more as a spokesmodel for Redbook rather than its editor in chief.

So I was really, really surprised to see what must be at least 25 pair of pants, of all different sizes. Four different sizes, none of which fit when I moved (though from 2010 to 2013 I crossed the threshold of six different sizes, which is pretty amazing to consider). Why was I packing all that history up and bringing it with me?

I didn’t realize how much I was still holding onto that old life, life before everything changed all at once, until I saw those pants.

It wasn’t for the fashion, either. The fancy clothes I had sold off through a consignment shop. This was simply Old Navy jeans and J.Crew pants and skirts. Good news is that, yes, a lot of them fit now, but there are still bags and bags to drive to the Goodwill today, along with all the clothes that only recently became too big.

To me those boxes show how deep and intense the need was to hold onto all I knew when everything changed. It was impossible for me to know and see what life would look like moving forward—impossible to believe it would all once again be great—so I had to hold on to some artifacts, a promise to myself of where I would find myself again. I kept the clothes from that time, in the hopes that I could slip back into them, as easy as pulling a dress over my head, and be back in the security of those days before I lost everything I knew about who I was.

The subtle joke, of course—and, oh, doesn’t the universe always have a subtle joke for us?—is that you can’t go back. And I don’t want to go back. Part of me is even tempted to give it all away, as if anything I had from that time is tainted. And because I don’t need it.

I did find one or three dresses from my last winter that I was glad to see again. (Oh, there you are!) But I’m on the fence about everything else. These pants and skirts are my Rosebud. I can’t go home again. My parents are gone. That home doesn’t exist anymore. Nor does the home where a traditional idea of success could protect me and inoculate me from having to face down the wounds imparted during childhood. Nor does the home where life can’t touch me, a mythical place I believed in, for so very long. I had to—it’s what kept me going for years, until I was strong enough, and yes, weak enough, to let in the much more complicated truth.

But I am good with the truth, and the truth is good with me. The inevitable cycle of life has taken its turn, depositing me in a place where I am at peace, and healed and whole.

I don’t need no stinking boxes. I’m good. Really good.

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A Rare Talent

I’m posting a stub of my BlogHer.com review of the lovely and amazing Anna Whiston-Donaldson’s book here, because I want you all to know why her book is so special.

10629740_10203718326831035_1501378421310218795_n10363530_10203718337591304_8570551001346765294_nWriter, blogger and mother Anna Whiston-Donaldson—whom I first knew as Anna See, from her blog An Inch of Gray—landed herself the kind of internet fame we’ve all come to fear. She lost her son, Jack, when he was just 12 years old, in 2011.

He didn’t die after a long-suffered disease, detailed on her blog, as we all leaned forward to support and carry her and her son. Instead, he was snatched up by fate—and angry, roiling waters that turned a small creek in Anna’s backyard into a grave for Jack, and a black hole for Anna and her family.—her husband, Tim, and Jack’s sister, Margaret, then 10. A warm summer rain that washed away life as they knew it and tossed them all into the cruel, tumbling disorientation of having to begin again when nothing made sense, when everything hurt.

I heard about this unimaginable event on Twitter, which lit up instantly and sent the message around the broad universe of parenting bloggers, a keening cry in 140 characters or fewer. The suddenness and randomness of it took all our breath away; the reaction was immediate and deep. Hundreds of us headed to Anna’s blog, to leave messages and prayers and regrets on her last post, which had been a series of photos of Jack and Margaret on their first day of school, just two days before. It was too poignant and painful to see his gap-toothed smile and imagine him gone.

I wrote a post about it that day for BlogHer, where I wondered aloud about the onrush of community, the leaning in, the prayers and mourning. Was it too much? Was it all right that we wanted to be in her pain with her? I was aware of how her loss had ignited a deep and aching need in me, to touch her and look Anna in the eye and say “No no no no no no no!” as if I could bring him back, as if we could bring him back. How could we ask her to carry our needs, too, in this moment?

But death, like birth, is a community event that makes us all ask questions, pray harder, try to solve the mysteries of life and faith, remember to have gratitude for all the luck that we forget to see in our lives every day. In that way, death is a catalyst,  forcing us to allow the notion that good exists in bad.

This is what Anna captures so beautifully and so damn imperfectly (more on that in a minute) in her new book, Rare Bird, which details the dark and painful days, months, years after Jack’s disappearance. But the book isn’t a meditation on grief—it’s a meditation on life and faith, and the beautiful and gorgeous struggle of being a mere human being trying to make sense of this world in a dark time.

Click here to read rest of post on BlogHer.com. Thanks!

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The World, It Is Big, But So Small

I forgot to take a photo. I’m kicking myself. I had an actual Maasai elder in my home, staying here, sharing his wisdom and worldview, and I forgot to take a photograph of him in his resplendent native dress, the familiar red fabric pieces wrapped around his body.

This morning we all got up at sunrise—me, my son, the Maasai elder, and Tanya, a friend from college who is the reason he is here—so Sululu could bless our home, ourselves. As he reached his hands down to place them on my son’s head, I had the sensation of eternity opening up in front of me: centuries of men lifting boys to men, the rich connection of generation to generation, a line drawn from here to there and all the way to beyond.

Zack was sitting on a piece of the red fabric that makes up Sululu’s clothes, and after the prayer, Sululu gave the fabric to Zack, and told him to carry it with him and let it bring him strength and support. Zack nodded, paying attention very hard, listening with his most serious ears. He knew Sululu was telling him something that mattered.

“Your son, he is very spiritual,” said Sululu to me the night before. Yes, yes, he is, I agreed. And shared with Sululu some of the stories of Zack’s “hotline to God,” as I call it, the moments when he was clearly seeing something big and divine in the room with us, as I made dinner or paid the bills or some other quotidian task.

Once, I was showing Zack YouTube videos of the Sufi dancers, explaining that the “whirling dervishes” spin and spin to fall into a trance, doing a dance called the fare, or “the perfect,” and that they do this in order to get close to god, to become one with all of mankind and be nothing but love.

“But I already am that,” he said, staring me plain in the face. And goosebumps lit a trail up my arms and met at the back of my neck.

“I know honey,” I said. “But the hard part is that we forget. We have distractions like work and video games, and we get pulled away from knowing this.”

“Like when you are yelling at me?” he asked, back to just a regular kid, his glimpse into eternity shuttered momentarily as I take him into my arms, laughing.

It’s been a few weeks of these kinds of moments for me, the unknowable unfolding. Sitting on the bus in India, with my head pressed against the window, people zooming by on motorcycles, clutching their saris or goats as they go. I suddenly hear so clearly in my own head, “You are fine. How could you ever think otherwise? You are lucky, and strong and true. Everything is as it should be, all the time.”

Standing in the kitchen talking to my friend, Tanya, a sociologist and anthropologist, a Ph.D. who found herself in Africa—and then found herself in Africa. We were close friends in college and walked off into different worlds—as I built a big, sparkly career for myself in the city, the city where her father had made his name as a big ad man, part of the reason she was moved to choose another venue. In the kitchen it becomes again so clear our work has shared goals: to heal, to understand, to connect people to the divine in themselves, in others, to be able to carry pain with grace, to get better at finding the love and the communities that will heal us. It feels amazing to be standing in the same river with her, though we’ve been halfway around the world from each other for decades.

Sululu’s stories of the Maasai community are mesmerizing to me, the ways in which no one is ever alone, and each person is given a mentor with whom to share the secrets and pains that could not be shared with parents. Uncles are also your fathers; the community elders sit and ponder problems that are pulling on one or more in their tribe. No one is expected to do or solve anything alone.

I moved to Garrison out of an urge to be part of a community. Ironic given the fact that I am surrounded by woods, my nearest neighbor a few acres away. But the intention I find here is magnificent. I intentionally run into and talk to and invite over friends and guests and visitors, rather than being constantly surrounded by people who are hurrying by me. I have open gates and open doors, dogs and people streaming in and out on the busiest days, which happened when Sululu was here.

“Your house, it is open,” he said. And he wasn’t referring to the doors. “Yes,” I said. “It was important to me to be this way.” He nodded and said, “This is good.” And I felt blessed.

When Tanya and Sululu were here, we talked about villages and traditional life and the pull of modernity and what it is we lose when we separate ourselves from others. This is all part of Tanya’s book, Time is Cows, wherein she shares all the Maasai taught her and showed her, because she wanted to know them, live like them.

It’s been a big couple of weeks here, with the world knocking on my door and taking me by the hand and leading me places.

But the most interesting sensation of all is that it’s all felt like I’m heading home.

India wasn’t “life-changing” because I have been living a life where I’ve been trying to get to the quiet truth at the center of our busybusybusy lives filled with want and regret. It was “life-affirming” because it showed me all the work I’ve been doing to find my quiet and certain center is in fact leading me toward my own wisdom and my peace.

Faith. Such a wisp of a word to capture something so impossibly huge.

Thank you Tanya, and Sululu, for bringing to us what you live and know. It’s always an honor to stand in someone’s heartspace, shake hands and say, ‘Yes, this, it is precious. All of it.’

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What I’m Trying To See

 

Beautiful poverty.

Beautiful poverty.


I am a pretty confident storyteller. I know how to find a beginning, wend my way toward the middle, do some memorable flourishes, and then wind up to either an operatic or an understated end, landing softly on a pillow of words arranged just so.

But I can’t make sense of India. I have so many ideas and feelings and reckonings I want to share, but almost all of them look and sound not quite right when I commit them to these little characters, parsed with commas and m-dashes and separated politely with endpoints.

India is a car crash and a symphony. It’s chaotic and calming in equal measure. Nothing makes sense there, except, then, suddenly, everything.

Because the no-sense of it—and I’ll get to specifics eventually, I promise—is the IS, is the India. And, in a larger way, is the reality of most of the world. We, in America, with our proud attitudes and thirst for enchanting diversions and our indulgent luxury for pointless ideological conflict and and and….

I felt a lot of shame in India. Shame in the insane luxury of my house—a home I weirdly convinced myself is just an average home, because there are so many estates around me. Shame that I long for things, objects, treasures, even though I know that for me the love of design objects for me is almost a faith, the way they express the imagination, skill and humanity of those who made it.

But the shame wasn’t humiliating, self-abnegating. It was more like a constant thrum of:

oh.

And then:

huh.

And then:

wow.

A moment of reflection, and then I would be instantly swept back up in looking and seeing and greeting and smiling and pressing my nose up against the window of the bus and watching motorcycle after motorcycle, with two, three, four, I swear to you five, passengers zoom by. And the crazy tuk-tuks, which are basically three-wheel motorcycles with little cabs on them so they look like an amusement park ride more than a highway-safe vehicle, painted all manner of colors, with people constantly hopping on and off them, without waiting for the tuk-tuk to slow. In fact, the thing you see the least on the roads in India are cars. Tractors, yes, pulling flatbeds filled with logs or bricks or people, or all of the above. Bicycles, yes. Bicycles with crazy coop contraptions tied onto the back, carrying dozens of filthy dun-colored chickens with red caps to who the hell knows where. And an endless parade of construction trucks, painted salmon or aqua or red or green, and bedecked with long black tassels on the rear-view mirrors, and shining aluminum trim and hand-painted letters and decorations, and some of them even had silver bells hanging below the back bumper, or had painted patterns arrayed like eyelashes on the edges of the windshield.

In India, pink is just a color.

In India, trash is part of the landscape, inescapable.

In India, everything is so EVERYTHING ALL THE TIME.

I want this post to make sense. I want it to say something coherent. But for now all I can say is I am enraptured. The gorgeous and the ugly; the beautiful and the terrible… could there be another place on earth that so clearly captures the everything of the world in one fell swoop? That shows the undirected accidents of fate so plainly and clearly? That mixes up the impossible and the transcendent in one big fucking unbelievable soup?

I felt like I was out on the very edge of seeing what the world is, seeing something I know and recognize from within my heart —– but seeing it in person was so much deeper and wider than I could have known.

India is everything you’ve ever heard, except, for me, I found that it all added up differently in person. I wanted to freeze frame every single second and hold it in my hand and stare at the photo of it and take it all in and notice each little detail. But there’s too much to see.

I don’t know when it will organize itself in my head in a way that will allow me to bring you along on the journey with me. But I know I will be going back.

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India: The First Post Is the Hardest

A big, adorable welcome at a public school in Bangalore.

A big, adorable welcome at a public school in Bangalore.

Finally. I finally gave birth to my overview post of what we saw on our trip to India, we being the eight social media influencers Coca-Cola invited to come see the community work they are doing to support sustainability and the advancement of women and girls and education and career development and and and….

There are a lot of things to support and develop in India, we can start with that.

But there are also so many incredibly lovely things, first and foremost, naturally, the people.

PEOPLE. People are amazing. Humanity is amazing. Man, the incredible luxury of being dropped into another culture, as special guests, with tour guides, and invitations into the most rural parts of society, places one would never see as a tourist…. Incredible.

I’ll write more about all of that, soon. Because I did finally finish the “official” piece, the overview piece, that delves into the history and role of Coca-Cola in India.

That post is live on BlogHer right now, so please, hop on over and read it.

And now I will be free to start throwing out memories and comments and photos and asides and all manner of chaotic, unorganized thoughts about India…. So watch this space.

And thank you, as ever, for being interested in the first place.

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What I Will Remember, Part I

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This photo for me — of a beautiful mandala, made of flowers, which was laid out for us at one of our hotels — captures an essence of India that I will never forget: The incredible welcoming spirit of this country. We were greeted at every destination with handmade gardens of fresh flowers and the traditional blessing of applying the tilak, a ritual mark of vermilion placed between the brows of the visitor. But the welcome was so much deeper than the ritual: the level of engagement and sharing was astonishing, humbling and uplifting. The pride that came through in every single interaction, whether the speaker was shy or gregarious, was truly memorable. It was galvanizing to see how clearly people’s lives have been impacted and uplifted by simple ideas, well applied, and supported by a unique combination of private-government-community. India has long been on a threshold, lurching toward modernity despite its many severe infrastructural issues; after these visits, it was impossible not to feel anything but hope and expectation that the country, and in particular its women, are coming into their own. On our last day, we visited the Coca-Cola supported Career Development Center in Dasna, and met young people who were bursting with pride at all they now knew they could accomplish, a very short bridge having been built for them by the center between their traditional village lives and modern world happening all around them. “What I learned here nobody had taught me before,” said one girl, “which was to have confidence in myself.” A woman who took part in the village Self-Help Clubs for micro-saving and micro-lending said it more starkly, and more beautifully: “What I found here was a second chance at life.”

I am deeply grateful to Coca-Cola and the International Bottling Investments Group for bringing me to India to see not only their work at partnering with India and its people to make sustainable progress on numerous fronts, but also the incredible majesty of a massive country and its people coming to terms with itself and its future.

#5by20 @CocaColaCo

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