Grief and Love During the Holidays

Christmas tree 2012, for mom and dad.

I’m so, so happy to say I’ve just arrived in Lake Placid, where I’ll be spending Christmas with my son and my boyfriend. There isn’t as much snow as we’d hoped (no cross-country skiing), but the trees and ground are kissed with white and the giant evergreens are wearing their wisdom as grandly as ever. Ahhhh, my spiritual home.

This is my second Christmas without my parents, and even though it’s still a sad and lonely time, I am buoyed by how much less dire it feels than last year, when we were preparing our final celebration in our parents’ home, ever. Bittersweet is too gentle a word to describe what that time felt like.

I wrote a bit about this for BlogHer, who—by the way—is officially my new fulltime employer, as of January 3. I will be the editor in chief of the website, and we have plans, plans, plans! galore and I can’t wait to unveil them throughout 2012. So yes, one key anchor in my life has been planted, just 18 months after everything went upside down. It has both been a deliriously slow and painful time, as well as the just-right amount of time for things to start to come together. I’m still standing on incredibly insolid ground.

But, dammit, I’m standing!

Wishing you and yours a warm and fulfilling holiday week.

Without further ado, here’s my piece about Living Grief (And Love) During the Holidays.

About stacy

I am a writer, author, mother, former magazine editor (last at Redbook), optimist, and, above all, a searcher. I'm still searching for whom I'm really meant to be, after a series of very jarring losses: a divorce and house disaster that led to a book (Falling Apart In One Piece); a week after the book came out, my parents suddenly fell gravely ill, I resigned from my job (and, apparently, my career), my son went into crisis, my parents then rapidly died four weeks apart, and my boyfriend (who had moved in with me and my son just weeks before the book came out) began the painful journey of realizing we couldn't make our relationship work (that story unfolded on this blog). Since then I've been trying to figure out what's next. Or, in other words, how to fill in the blanks.
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2 Responses to Grief and Love During the Holidays

  1. Lindsey says:

    Bravo on the BlogHer position – I can’t wait to see what you have in store! And I hope the next few days are calm and full of love, despite their inevitable tinge of grief. Thinking of you. xox

  2. I certainly understand that feeling to do with holiday time, when parents are no longer present. It’s a kind of ache that, with time and our own children, does indeed lessen. Fortunately.

    What wonderful news about BlogHer! So exciting, and congratulations!

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