It’s a crazy-busy six weeks here, with business trips to CA, VA, TX, CA again, VA again and then a necessary and much-anticipated visit to my son’s only living grandparent, the lovely Grandma Barb.
So most days I’m a little upside-down-where-am-I? But I’m grateful that through the years of business-tripping I have learned how to do it well. I know my limits, know when I need to sleep, when I can or simply cannot take the red-eye home, and how much I can ask my son and his father and his almost-stepfather to do.
This week is the first week that my boyfriend is taking sole care of Zack for four days on his own. I’m nervous! But all seems to be going well. (We’re only one day in, but clearly my anxiety about this is higher than my boyfriend’s—which is a perfectly fine order of things if you ask me.)
Life continues to be unsettled and up in the air. We are supposed to be moving, all of us as a family, to upstate New York at the end of the school year. But the house is not yet chosen, my apartment is not yet show-ready, the school has not been personally visited. And here I am, all over the United States, when I feel I really should be at home taking care of these very large orders of business. But I remind myself that paying the bills and doing work I completely love are two things I was not at all doing just a few months ago…. so I take a deep breath and try to be easy.
The amazing stability that I take with me everywhere I go is the internet. No, not the J.Crew storefront (my favorite place to while away 15 minutes) or my trusty email. But all of you, the women who populate my life, my browser, my Twitter, my RSS feeds, my Facebook, my internal ever-revolving landscape. I will never cease to be amazed how very real you all are, and how important a role you play in my life.
Thank you for being my stable and my secure as I fly all around the world, trying to find my safe and making a few dreams come true (for me and for others). My parents may be gone, my ex-husband in the rear-view mirror, my boyfriend uncertain about where life may take him next, but you, great Women of the Internet, are always at my side.
Namaste, and blessings to us all.