Tag Archives: change

It Hurts

  [Ed note: TL;DR, but I just had to articulate for myself what I’ve been feeling.] As someone on a Buddhist path, I am friends with suffering. By being able to reorient myself to know—to truly, deeply know—that every life … Continue reading

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Layers of Endings

In my life, very few shifting events—those decisive moments when life goes from This to That—unfold in a solo way, happening all by itself. I seem to get disruptions in big, broad swaths, multiple aspects of my dailyness undone at once. Here … Continue reading

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The In Betweens

So I finished my first draft of a book outline — and not surprisingly, it’s not quite good yet. No, truly. That’s my agent talking, not just me. And it’s been enough weeks since I finished it, that I can … Continue reading

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What Is Within My Silence?

I have always lived in chaos. It’s what I was born to, first of all: a dramatic and dynamic mother, a total whirlwind of personality, charm and presence whose mind was a turbulent sea, able to pull her underwater at … Continue reading

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Days Like These

Getting ready for good-bye. My boyfriend is packing up his belongings today, preparing to move out of my apartment. This is not news either of us is particularly excited about. It feels terribly unfair and uncomfortable and unreal. The cardboard … Continue reading

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How Do You?

How do you manage an impossible decision? How do you sort between two options you know will leave you unsatisfied or heartbroken? How do you find the strength to unseat plans made and throw your life back into neutral? I … Continue reading

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Whither Wisdom

I am mulling. I guess this is seasonally appropriate, since fall is (maybe? finally? at last?) upon us. I’ve had so much input, and so many experiences, and made a handful of decisions (after months of making none). I started … Continue reading

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In California, the Vague Becomes Clear

I am being coddled at the moment, as I am currently in Sonoma Valley (at the Mighty Summit), enjoying wine and the company of 28 other amazing, interesting, funny women. And as I’ve met each one and been asked the … Continue reading

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A Motto to Live By

I’m not ashamed to admit that I’m someone who believes in the power of mantras, words to focus on to redirect one’s thoughts. In fact, all the chapter headings in my book are the actual words I repeated to myself … Continue reading

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What Makes A Good Life?

I stumbled across an unbelievable combination of informations today on the internets (Thank you, Twitter!), and my mind is still reeling. First, there was the new truth of how American demographics are changing, ousting the married-with-kids as the central building … Continue reading

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